Honest Questions

Questions and Shadows There's an inner struggle, a fight What to believe? My heart says it's red, but my mind says it's green Meanwhile this over used, beaten up soul wanders through darkness Seeking an end to this ever long night In my hand I hold a seed, a ray of light it blooms, and so comes forth new life Who would've thought that a shadow wandering aimlessly in the night Would carry a gift so precious as hope Who Am I Who am I the question echoes through hitting like bolts of lightening in the midnight skies Why can't they see the beauty that flows through me? the heart permanently cries labored sighs In my hand I hold a seed, a ray of light it blooms, and so comes forth new life Who would've thought that a shadow wandering aimlessly in the night Would carry a gift so precious as hope and in this heart a promise, Eternal light A shadow wandering through the lands with nothing but the hope in his hand This see...

Rising suns Setting over the west So sets my heart Over all my hopes and dreams Angels may guide me Day to day But I know the sting Of a wound that won't ever close To search for answers that don't exist The exhaustion of my humanity It's getting to me Like a precious metal Rusting from the daily showers of salty tears There's a loss , an emptiness I feel Gusts blowing on a flickering flame, A single candle blowing in 90 mile per hour winds A sadness, Loneliness that will not evade It's like a bad dream Where you cannot awake It's a heavy truth You cannot escape That image of yourself You've seen change There are certain things from which you cannot get away Who you are, Choices you've made I'll never regret The love I gave true and unselfish You were hungry, And I invited you in You were lost, I extended my hand There's a loss , An emptiness I feel Gusts blowing on a flickering flame A single candle blowi...

The bough breaks through silence Are you listening  what sounds like shrieking, it's actually people cheering their souls signed away for cheap thrills for words that dissolve in thin air Words, promises Empty Howling wolves; fumbling Judas So ignorant and blinded Living off ambition and defeat So wipe away the blood from the side of your mouth and prepare yourself for the grave you've dug twelve feet underground trying to conceal the blood thirsty vampire you keep hidden behind the fear you inject into us like a shot straight from Kavorkian's hand killing the sick, the weak, and impoverished Wickedness is your magic, go ahead, Wave your wand around some more Words, dripping with the heavy stench Lies told to manipulate us all like tiny marionettes Are you listening? Can you hear? the marketplace bubbling in anger As they judge Truth to the death Illusion smiles in approval These animals fangs, have once again been revealed Evil sh...

Hearts hung on the line in the yard Rung out , life squeezed out Color has been scrubbed out And like a black and white movie So plays my life On Voices muted Words that never were said Yeah, they just stayed inside my head And this old record keeps spinning round and round Broken needle doesn't play the music All you hear is scratching... On and on.. Letters all misconstrued My heart wasn't for the taking You left it , broken, used So go on with your life as it was before We met But don't expect me to be there I'll have gotten over you When you figure out its over Voices muted Words that never were said Yeah, they just stayed inside my head And this old record keeps spinning round and round Broken needle doesn't play the music All you hear is scratching... On and on.. Love to you, is an unknown language You had it, ignored ,disguised, covered it up Took a beautiful painting, Doused it in white You wouldn't know love Bec...

If love is a song And our lives are meant to sing Then I'm still learning the notes This tune is still being composed If life is a symphony Our lives the instruments Let me play my solo the best I can For our moment on stage passes in just a blink of an eye We are on a journey Followers of a divine call Confusing sometimes but if you listen close enough To the silence The voice shouting within the stillness of the twilight's fall Playing as you make your way Through this maze , life is Through the ugly and beautiful Whether you feel weak or courage has shielded you It's a path we must all take Actions speak louder than words And words more compelling than beauty This life's a journey And I will keep walking til the last sun rises over the east We are on a journey Followers of a divine call Confusing sometimes but if you listen close enough To the silence The voice shouting within the stillness of the twilight's fall If love is a s...

All The Same By: Wilbanice Ayala 9:30am We've reached the point where things become concrete, Like when the sand on the ocean and the salty tide water meet, We've come to the point where our souls bleed, crying out for someone to save them from this mediocrity And we are all just searching for the same things, don't you know? All just looking for a hand to hold... through the fierceness of this oncoming blizzard For that flickering flame that'll keep our cold hands warm But what can we do, if it's hidden, flames become weak and dull Dying on dusty cupboards, piled away and stored We've reached the point where our stories form, Like tumbleweed in a desert storm We got caught up in the old, dry brush Our faults accumulated til they become so big It's us they begin to crush, Our unmet necessities, our excessive wants We've reached the point where our stories form, they may seem over, but They have barely begun Yes, we are all sear...

There's a song in my head Familiar but unknown The music you make when you smile engulfs deserts with a mighty flood water flowing, the old is eroding cleansed by your Infinite, Mercy Divine I'm not who I used to be Freedom inscripted on your hands burn through me It frees me from what keeps me within these boundaries This is where I seek Hope and Life in your Mercy Divine You make currents harmonize crashing waves of white cresting over my chains tonight Sounds of running waters collide Salt water rots away, shackles that had me in temporary waiting d breaks away these terrible chains Refining me You're refining me Into a rare diamond that reflects your light Brilliantly and so marvalously Freedom inscripted on your hands It frees me from what keeps me bound to this body of mine Forgiveness and mercy Hope and Life Oh Infinate Mercy, Divine

You thought you had me fooled You played me like a card in a game Putting the blame on me I fell for it but that's okay you'll get what you reaped and though you may not believe  What goes around, comes around Someday you'll see The loss was yours baby

birds sing the sun on the verge of rising in my mind and heart so many memories play like an old movie reliving each one over and over has got me in a constant state of misery My body is weak shaken and torn i can barely eat, and this fever has got me worn never has my body rece ived so much torture I'm frazzled, biwildered a moving disaster I wake up at 3 then 4, 5, and 6 each and every time I look around, hoping you'll be with me but youre not these dreama have gotta stop What's life if youre walking through it withotut a heart?

july 1, 2012 Technicolor tears cover a face a face unrecognizable confused in between neon and  black and white music and noise reasons or excuses and everything inbetween Yet Love is patient Love is kind but somebody please tell me where do you draw the line? When you feel another's every hurt, share their pain But you've reached a wall and no matter how many times you try to climb it you continue to fall Tell me, how do you spell out the word Love to a broken soul? How do you show them their beauty? How do you Technicolor tears cover a face a face unrecognizable confused in between neon and  black and white music and noise reasons or excuses and everything inbetween And you shed these troubles like a snake it's skin but the weight has become so heavy you cannot carry the burden I am here for you, but you've gotta let me in My Love for you will not change just let go let go of all that's binding you up Confide in me,...

Lately you seem further away my words , the I love you's, get lost in the wind And there's not a whole lot I can say because there's something youre just not telling me I can see it in your eyes it's eating you up inside I can feel it in your kiss the passion's no longer there What is it I'm missing? Or am I doing something wrong? cause lately i wonder if you love me the words float around like a ghost in a  hall Despite all this, I still get lost in your eyes Only my heart's breaking a little more each time And I fear you may soon realize that this is not what you've signed up for I'll wake up to nobody by my side

"where morning dawns and evening fades, you call forth songs of joy."- Psalm 65:8

Search for me like a sparrow for her food, Like a child in play, Who knows not where to go Look for me like the winter's frozen hearts Seek out the sun to warm their souls, A meadow on a spring day Full of dandelions and blue bonnets Adorns your heart Encircles your sorrow So let the days fruit not cease That this Love may flourish tomorrow

Psalm 96

But the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, which shines brighter and brighter until full day. -Proverbs 4:18 (ESV)

The Beauty of the Moment             Life is a challenge. It can be exhausting as we head down the tumultuous path that hopefully will someday lead us to happiness. Routines get old, pretty soon we lose sight of what’s true. It’s like riding a carousel, the more it goes around and aound, the more things seem to blend together into one big blur. The flashing lights of the ride persuading you to get on, the children running up and down the middle of the ride, anxiously choosing which horse they will ride.Just for a moment innocence’s sheer delicacy, Innocence  The beauty found in every single moment of our lives, treasuring the very air we breathe, “who says we have been promised tomorrow?” Our time here is short, for it is like a speck of dust in the sands of time, and gone in the simple wink of an eye. Have you ever watched a home movie or looked at old photos, and felt the exact same way you felt the day the pic...

Pain paints the canvas of a lost soul a shadow wandering looking for the light These shades they seem to all combine between dreams and reality truth and lies no justifying no compromise Just a shadow wandering searching for the light Pain paints the canvas of a lost soul a shadow wandering looking for the light Tears cloud your eyes yes they have greyed my skies cover the sun with your hand your silence blankets the earth tonight Pain paints the canvas of a lost soul a shadow wandering looking for the light I may never fully comprehend no, I can't get my head around what these colors mean when life can be so black and white But I can hope that soon I will see Your beauty peering around the corner, and an end to this longest darkest night Pain paints the canvas of a lost soul a shadow wandering looking for the light

It is in these times of doubt times of saddness, suffering, lonliness, Tears running down my face feeling abandoned, forgotten, afraid ashamed of these dead ended sentiments It's in these very moments When chaos is so loud Disaster crumbling all around me I'm ripping at the seams Untangled, dismantled, so worn out Completely incomplete I'm ripping at the seams As the storm passes silence is revealed the fiasco in my troubled mind Overcome with peace Once again I will yield My life to you and everything within It's in these very moments When chaos is so loud Disaster crumbling all around me I'm ripping at the seams Untangled, dismantled, so worn out Completely incomplete I'm ripping at the seams I ask for your forgiveness I ask for your strength to get the weary wanderer Back on the road again

Love is the sound of quietness the stillness of the night it's the sound of a heart beat a whispered lulluby it's the gentle breeze it's nervousness, at saying the wrong things it's understanding enough, to know these words dont always come out right Love is simple it needs not try to impress, It just is, nothing more, nothing less it's the sound of a heart beat a whispered lullaby Love is a gentle smile a broken heart bandaged up but still beating It's the one who cleans the wound by showering it with Love til it begins healing Love isnt always perfect isnt always pretty and doesnt always feel right It has it's ups and downs, like a roller coaster ride But if you try let yourself see past all the fears, pains,  the confusion and disappointments you will find That what used to be two, have now become one One half will keep the other safe two heartbeats keeping each other alive Love is your  breath  against me as you sle...

Suffocated by the unknown the story yet to be told that piece of history waiting to unfold It sits on my chest like a five hundred pound bag of stones Gasping for air, Alone To be continued... They say Lonliness is a state of mind it's in our power to hold on or let go But how can you let go to something you've never had? And what do you do when the sand is racing through the glass the road that diverged, is pointing toward wetlands, what used to be a path has taken you right back where you began Suffocated by the unknown the story yet to be told that piece of history waiting to unfold It sits on my chest like a five hundred pound bag of stones Gasping for air, Alone To be continued... You said, Do you know how it feels to be the only prince without  a sword no shield to mask myself not even a stone to throw Suffocated by the unknown my story, yet to be told I'm gasping for air alone Despair has dragged me here Each improvement be...

Spring is on the verge of budding through but the weather seems like it's getting colder Twisted innocence Long lost words of promise have been overturned I'm left here under the grey skies Uncertainty hangs over us like the clouds overhead I'll act like I never knew you as I try to move on I'll act like I never knew you because it's my heart that's scarred It's time move on Chess pieces on a board yes that's all you took me for I sat and waited for you like a child Knew what we were getting into before an affair of the heart became much more but i never expected didn't think you'd be so ready to rid yourself of me I guess it's better to be alone than in in bad company I'm left here under the grey skies Uncertainty hangs over us like the clouds overhead I'll act like I never knew you as I try to move on I'll act like I never knew you because it's my heart that's scarred It's time ...

Love swings like a pendulum awaiting the time that it may ring like a bird sings at the morn so sings the pendulum on the wall A mysterious rhyme perhaps a riddle comes forth from swinging pendulum on the wall a rhyme reveals the verses deeply etched within a heart the scripture of a soul set apart And though my focus there remains my mind wanders from where it's been escaping the gleaming tune Like a bird sings i the early afternoon so the pendulum on the wall sings to you

Do you see the light exuding the blood stains still trickling in my tears absorbed by the quiet the stillness I lack oh that I long for this battle has me strapped to a weapon, i didn't know war could be this cold I didnt know how quickly a heart could tarnish The stains it would leave on a soul Do you hear a voice calling ? In the distance, far beyond your vision, beyond audible sound Sounding like notes to a put to time I hear a song far in the distance It calls a name, could it be mine? this battle has me strapped to a weapon, i didn't know war could be this cold I didnt know how quickly a heart could tarnish The stains it would leave on a soul And this thing they call love here it's all a lie they've taken something beautiful made it dark, dirtied it My Jesus, vandalized Egos. greed, selfishness I need to feel Love's hand touching and healing my wounds Making visionaries of the blind This battle has me strapped to a we...

My soul sings melodys Singing notes I've never heard Echoing down the hallways, of my heart tonight Bringing spring time into my frozen paradise You, all it takes is you, your beauty leaves me speechless on my knees I tremble Enlighten me Silently my soul sings Passion drives this simple harmony Silently my soul sings of questions without answers an ever present Grace Dreams, they're just dreams Of a love, serenades me through the night Ballads of these melodies Compositions written by the stars All aligned in perfect time My soul sings melodys Singing notes I've never heard Echoing down the hallways, of my heart tonight Bringing spring time into my frozen paradise

When you are crippled in pain you're lying there waiting, just waiting To feel His touch Sing When your heart is broken, and your tears won't let you see Close your eyes, and sing When lonliness starts to creep up on you whispering; All you can hear is noise Remember your a child of God and sing Sing through your tears, Break through the bars of fear Sing while you rejoice Sing, don't be shy and lift your voice When you can do nothing else... Sing

petals fall off a stem at something as simple as a change in the winds fragile is the heart beating inside of me My heart is a flower slowly blossoming So keep the sunlight coming Shine those rays upon me Lest the excess darkness Cause my petals to start wilting Might the planets become disaligned At the sight of you I could go blind If this all turns out to be a lie Fragile, like a flower in the winter time Fragile like a song with a broken beat Rhythm  without time My  existence  might cease

I'm broken, have fallen on my face Nothing close to perfect , but there's one thing I can say I've found wonder within the tragedy Hope through adversity Beauty emerging from ashes rises above catastrophe rivers with no ending flowing freely Saved from misery by a light bigger eyes can see brought through the fire, Beauty from ashes There's a river that runs much deeper, flowing directly into the sea there's a beauty that is much deeper deeper than the eye can see There's a question with no answer there's mystery in the suffering brought through the fire, Beauty from ashes Beauty emerging from ashes rises above catastrophe rivers with no ending flowing freely Saved from misery by a light bigger eyes can see brought through the fire, Beauty from ashes Beauty from ashes they'll rise death brings new life Open your eyes, you'll see Beauty from ashes