Honest Questions

I know it's been a long time those tears can only be held in for so long before the levee breaks, all you tried holding back has now broken forth You can't be strong all the time Pain isn't pretty but from it emerges beauty Would you let me just hold your heart even though you swear it's scattered in a million parts Take these moments of joy take these rays of sunlight take my hand, take my hand laugh these painful moments away I promise, the tears will stop Just watering the garden for the harvest that is to come You can't be strong all the time Pain isn't pretty but from it emerges beauty Remember I'm here through it all Would you let me just hold your heart even though you swear it's scattered in a million parts "There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer; no disease that enough love will not heal; no door that enough love will not open; no gulf that enough love will not bridge; no wall ...

For the first time I'm sitting in disbelief Listening, praying Watching every movement counting every breath the earth keeps rotating seasons changing Life is happening Strength uphold me Mercy For the first time I awaken to the birds singing Though I was asleep for quite some time Lately I've been mistaken Because.. what's love to give when you don't know where it's from What it is? I know this life is all a gift but every now and then Compassion is mistaken Though my heart is pure and my motives are true Who am I to judge What he sends All we have are gifts from above For the first time I awaken to the birds singing Though I was asleep for quite some time Lately I've been mistaken the earth keeps rotating seasons changing Life is happening Strength uphold me Mercy

You are so good My Savior You are so glorious Shower me with love hold me up with all Your blessings My fortess, my rock, to You I give my heart I awaken in the morn with fresh air to breathe Look out the window see the sun shining through the trees All around me I find a reason to sing a song to To my Maker, my Healer, my Everything Your mercy has canceled out my pain I find that at those moments You never fail to send a compassionate heart with a smile on their face Reminding me of all the beautiful miracles You've unveiled I see Your love in their eyes In the snow and the star filled sky I feel Your arms holding me And it's Your words I hear as they pray for me Faith comes from hoping in that which we cannot see

My childhood dreams escape me they keep me on my knees unturned stones heart without a home carried away by the stream Leaves go from orange to red the night is once again day sun rises, sun sets feeling broken but it's okay Someday I'll meet you, just not today Fear is contagious Deceiving at the very least Please don't let me scare you please dont turn around and leave Leaves go from orange to red the night is once again day sun rises, sun sets feeling broken but it's okay Someday I'll meet you, just not today I'm willing to start all over change what needs to change If waiting is my only option I'll sit back down again Childhood dreams escape me Keep me on my knees unturned stones heart without a home carried away by the stream I know this is the only way Surrendering all over again every second of every day

Moments fade turning into hours, now they've become days Patience isn't my ally waiting.... sit and wait on the curbside Here I stand thumb out, waving my hand cars come cars go no one stops Not a glance, not a second look Here I stand confess that I'm weak I'm stained bruised and dirtied from the long, calloused journey I am what I am a broken and confused human I fear anymore heartache anymore pain will do away with me I wear my heart on my sleeve Open for the world to see But tonight it's only visible to those who search Look beyond what you feel Touch more than what you see Listen for the heartbeat Like a constellation in the night sky I'm just another star dimming out, missing it's light in the cold and dark night Another star Waiting to shine

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it. Life is too precious, do not destroy it. Life is life, fight for it." — Mother Teresa

In the middle of a desert Id stay for eternity and a day just to feel your love coming my way I would meet any challenge and succeed walk through the Sahara on my bare feet just to have you close to me There's no question that for you I'd go around mountains crawl through vast valleys, Swim across the widest of seas If that would give me a chance to be with you, then that's what I'd do just for a chance, I'd risk all i have Just to have you close to me Prayer after prayer night after night I'd waited for something like this and though I'm scared of being hurt I'm willing to take the risk There's no question that for you I'd go around mountains crawl through vast valleys, Swim across the widest of seas If that would give me a chance to be with you, then that's what I'd do just for a chance, I'd risk all i have Just to have you close to me

Let the needy search I will supply their needs Let the lost stop wandering And seek me Direction they will find I’ll be their map Compass and guide Rejoice I am hope, love, I am life, joy Let go of your troubles, Doubts, and broken dreams My beloved child Let go and rejoice in singing Let the lonely open their hearts Knock down the walls Reacquaint themselves with hope And I’ll make the seas of sorrow and sadness depart Let the proud fall to their knees Let the self seeking stop Repent and depend on me Soon they’ll see Earthly treasures and money amount to nothing but greed Rejoice I am hope, love, I am life, joy Let go of your troubles, Doubts, and broken dreams My beloved child Let go and rejoice in singing

No more No more Tears keep falling Pain's forever calling Unrelenting Seems like it's never ending Dead End I know you're the one holding on if it were up to me I'd be out, over this done But you're the one holding on Just wish I could see the typhoon before it hits so damn confused Dead end I have moments when I feel strong there are days I wish you'd let go let this disaster end between pain and sorrow I'm an oncoming wreck Dead end

It is in these times of doubt times of sadness, suffering, Tears running down my face feeling abandoned, forgotten, afraid ashamed of these numbed, dead ended sentiments It's in these very moments When chaos is so loud Disaster crumbling all around me I'm ripping at the seams Untangled, dismantled, so worn out Completely incomplete I'm ripping at the seams As the storm passes silence is revealed the fiasco in my troubled mind Overcome with peace Once again I will yield My life to you and everything within It's in these very moments When chaos is so loud Disaster crumbling all around me I'm ripping at the seams Untangled, dismantled, so worn out Completely incomplete I'm ripping at the seams I ask for your forgiveness I ask for your strength to get the weary wanderer Back on the road again

this is like a game of make believe Who can I be today? How many prefer me this way? Identity oh, identity crisis Trying to fit into a mold you're not meant to be in Cookie cutter world demands perfection but there's a problem with their perception so many misconceptions And where does this leave you? Identity crisis Walk how you're taught go on, strut your stuff Say everything you're supposed to rehearsed lines you aren't so tough Give it up Smiling but inside you're dying For once be who you are Leave behind the hurt keeping your wall up, so tall Let go of this identity crisis Walk how you're taught go on, strut your stuff Say everything you're supposed to rehearsed lines you aren't so tough Give it up Smiling but inside you're dying

Hurry up and step on the gas I gotta get outta here now Gotta get outta here fast I know there's more to life than this pain I'm feeling Cutting thru me like pieces of sharpened glass Get me out of here Outta this nightmare So many years trying to get away but the pain is always there No use in trying to evade it Hurry up and step on the gas I gotta get outta here now Gotta get outta here fast I know there's more to life than this pain I'm feeling Cutting thru me like pieces of sharpened glass There are things I just can't see to much uncertainty, I'm looking to you now to help get me out I'm not strong enough to do this all by myself If only I could run Start over, in a new place somewhere unknown Hurry up and step on the gas I gotta get outta here now Gotta get outta here fast I know there's more to life than this pain I'm feeling Cutting through me like pieces of sharpened glass

Trusting isn't easy when you've gotta do it blindly forget what you're feeling you're either for or against me Every crossroad is a decision Each jeopardizing my condition Gonna quiet myself, let you speak I'll try my best to stay still forget everything that's been bothering me and there are things I must confess My heart is a bit bruised and abused fear has become part of my Sunday News My life is a mess I trust in you I trust in you Can't see the road, but I trust in you I trust in you I trust in you To take me far above what I'm physically able to do Darts are flying We are all moving targets Justifying our freedoms and rights Bit by bit building up our own pride A little white lie won't hurt anyone, right? I trust in you I trust in you Can't see the road, but I trust in you I trust in you I trust in you To take me far above what I'm physically able to do

How long have I been running? Trying to hide from the reality reasons for all my pain Leave me lonely and afraid How much time have I wasted Trying to grasp things that are out of my reach The ship has left the shore Curtain is down Show's over Gotta keep moving towards higher land Don't wanna stay here Get swallowed in by the quicksand Looking for a way out too long trying to hold on to what's clearly long gone The ship has left the shore Curtain is down Show's over Gotta keep moving towards higher land Don't wanna stay here Get swallowed in by the quicksand Cause you can't give what you don't have you gotta open the window if you ever want to feel the breeze don't be afraid of the wind What are you waiting for? No more running Cause all this time you've been running in the wrong direction

Walking on thin air taking a step into unknown territory Hoping you'll notice me My heart's not sure whether to stop or skip beats I'm walking into unknown territory Uncharted waters this is undiscovered land you reach out Looking into my eyes, you touch my hand, I recognize I'm walking on thin air with no map, don't know where I am And I'm almost certain undoubtedly sure that this was no coincidence Some say these feelings seem premature But the world froze for those moments And I'm almost certain undoubtedly sure that I'd met you some time, Somewhere, before Uncharted waters this is undiscovered land you reach out Looking into my eyes, I recognize that I'm... I'm walking on thin air with no map, don't know where I am Unanswered questions fill up my mind Keeping me up in the middle of the night Uncharted waters this is undiscovered land you reach out Looking into my eyes, I recognize that I'm... I'm walking on thin air with no map, d...

What's hope when drowned by fear, What's light when there are so many shadows? Give me something anything I'm following blindly hands out in front of me trying to keep myself from stumbling There is always that step you just didn't see that thing you always thought, you might just beat On life support and I'm flat lining everything I've known is colliding Hands out in front of me, I'm following blindly Burned by my own flame Like an open wound Everything stings there's a light somewhere, I know Through the fog of confusion and unacheived illusions Minimized hopes not quite realized I'm still trying Searching for that light There's gotta be light somewhere Someone pull me out of here

Vanishing Horizon There's a deafening silence screaming the sound of dreams continuously breaking knees tremble as the earth beneath me quakes there's an unsteady feeling a wave of uncertainty crashing over me How long until I will wake? How can you start something you've never begun how do you win a war without ammunition? how do you break through cement thick walls when there's a beating heart behind it and it's ready to stop Pain won't kill me though some days I could say differently pushing myself, keep walking one more mile towards the vanishing horizon no, this pain won't kill me How can you start something you've never begun how do you win a war without ammunition? how do you break through cement thick walls when there's a beating heart behind it and it's ready to stop I'm wounded yes I'm wounded and I don't know how to fix it I'm broken, words unspoken though bleeding I can't give in How can you start something you...

Take a crayon and fill me in Fill me with color cause I'm so tired of being Black and white More than a smile amuse me for a while can you give me a second of your time? To look past the visible See more than just a face in a crowd Take a crayon and fill me in Fill me with color cause I'm so tired of being Black and white sitting and watching As the world passes me by Wish I could walk out of the past Wish I could dance Into a new start Still hoping for that chance I'm still... here Take a crayon and fill me in Fill me with color cause I'm so tired of being Black and white Fading this is fading quickly

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We are: Soldiers in a battle, A battle for lives Children seeking open doors, Confident knowing we will find it Dreamers with our eyes wide open We are: Family, Knit together by a single thread- Hope Visionaries with a mission- Relentless Life is our quest Soldiers in and out of season We are: One, In this fight On this journey One on this quest One on this journey We are: In darkness We've been given the light We are Hikers On a climb The climb of our lives We are: One, In this fight On this journey One on this quest One on this journey Fighting against time Song of the Day: OneRepublic Marchin On

i feel like I'm losing my mind too much confusion so much wasted time I'm confined inside a body entangled in chains these chains keep me from flying they clipped my wings stolen the rythym from my rhyme I've been sitting in this cage watching the days pass by if one only knew the pain it never goes away Oh this cross it gets heavier each day and I do fear that despite my plea, prayers, and tears I am afraid this confession I will make I hope that love will not fail me leaving me astray To live a life in solitude is one nightmare to which I wish not to wake Song of the Day: John Mayer War of My Life

Seasons of brokenness come and go, guess I'm going through one of my own Not sure who to trust, don't know which way to go Weather is changing leaves begin to fall I'm scrambling around trying to pick pieces of my heart off the ground Wash your bloody hands dripping with my dreams, Covered in my hopes Seasons of brokenness come and go guess I'm going through one of my own Not sure who to trust Don't know which way to go Oh these seasons of brokenness Pain is raw, they leave me frozen from head to toe prayers of desperation escape my cracked lips chapped and wounded Broken bliss I am chapped and wounded I am in a state of Broken bliss Another night with no sleep watched the sun come up Heard the angels sing in the silence of the morn Felt their warmth penetrating into my numbed soul I'm breathing I'm alive Still alive Song of the Day. Perfect Love by Alpha Rev

It hurts, but I’m still smiling I’m tired, but I’m still fighting My eyes sting, I’m still searching I can’t hear, My hearts is listening I can’t walk, yet I’m still standing Sometimes the pain and hurt make me blind But in my heart I know You’ll shine that light No matter how lost I feel you won’t ever leave me behind I’ve been lied to, But I still believe In that tune he sang My heart plays it for me I’m heart broken, I still manage to love I feel betrayed, I still open my arms I’m wounded and bruised, I still try to walk I will take that step Knowing I may once again fall

Song of the Day: Lay em Down Needtobreathe

Sing me that song the one you sang the night we met under the reflection of the late moonlight You sang to me your heart It was scribbled on a sheet you played me a song and the rhythm was my heart beat You looked into my eyes played everything my lips could never speak each key revealed a story hidden in the very depths of me, Every bar, slowly enrapturing me Could this be real or was it just another dream? Tears streaming down my face Melody still playing you looked up and smiled consoling me with just a glance Stealing my heart and soul engaging me into this glorious romance Dance, oh how we danced two souls intertwined We danced to the stars in the waltz of our lives Sing me that song the one you sang the night we met under the reflection of the late moonlight You sang to me your heart ...scribbled on a sheet you played me a song and the rhythm was my heart beat

When there are tears I'm restoring Momentary rain no need to worry Look at the beauty that's emerging Feel your heart's finally beating again My love for you is constant It will never end you're scared of being broken Let it bring you strength On me you can depend Thru darkness and desperation Hope always sings Faith continues to shine I bring what's dead to life I am always with you, no matter where you are I'm here Do not be dismayed Let love show you the better way Thru darkness and desperation Hope always sings Faith continues to shine I bring what's dead to life

"Seek God's kingdom, and all the other things you need will be given to you."~ Luke 12:31 The look in a child's eyes the way things always work out, even when it feels like nothing goes right To sit and watch the sunrise Realize that one thing is true the One you keep trying to deny Chorus: breathe in breathe out something so ordinary we rarily think about assuming we'll wake up tomorrow beyond a shadow of a doubt Everythings so everyday Tend to forget why we're here anyway To laugh becomes an effort a smile is everyday You plaster it on mindlessly another shade of make up on your face Another senseless accessory you use to adorn the emptiness you feel within Who are you trying to fool? Who are you trying to convince? breathe in breathe out something so ordinary we rarely think about assuming we'll wake up tomorrow beyond a shadow of a doubt Everything's so everyday Tend to forget why we're here anyway Everything's so everyday the right will on...

Close my eyes, take a breath Forget all the things that make me feel like this Music's on Scream along Let it out You're not worth my distress Chorus: Yeah and life's too short to keep wondering why Yeah life's too short to let you take over my mind Yeah baby I'm convinced that I'm gonna win this time because life's too short to keep wondering why I'm strong then I'm weak Today is just Tuesday and Wednesday's looking bleak Fell again, brush it off clean it off Ain't gonna let it bleed Yeah and life's too short to keep wondering why Yeah life's too short to let you take over my mind Yeah baby I'm convinced that I'm gonna win this time because life's too short to keep wondering why Bridge: You just won't give up Always trying to find a way to bring me down the jokes on you game's turned around better luck next time Yeah and life's too short to keep wondering why Yeah life's too short to let you take over my m...

Disguised lies fake compromise Do you even know Who you are? Smiles all smiles Happy seems happy You sell yourself to others a twisted notion of who you wish you were You know the break down's coming when Fantasy clashes with apathy The costume is off, script gone, no make up to cover up Imperfections stares you straight in the face Tears are a common friend, the false confident one Shy, lonely, self conscious and scared is back again Yeah you know the break down's coming when Fantasy clashes with Apathy Do you even know who you are? Tried too hard to be yourself Lost your identity along the way Disguised lies fake compromise Illusions, expectations a broken heart bleeds beneath the fake smiles Why?

Breeze blows as my dreams escape me Like notes off sheet music I see the drummer But I hear no beat I see the flower blooming The scent isn’t there Is there something I’m missing Patience you’ve made a fool of me again I’m stumbling over my own feet Steps which I know are there Yet they keep tripping me Just as I brace myself for another cold autumn Just as I have convinced myself that I might just always be lonely Just as I watch the door slowly swing shut My ears have become accustomed to the sound of silence My hands are okay with being cold I have accepted that dreams sometimes are just dreams Life is too hard to live without those hopes The world seems to stop All comes to a halt The wind stops Drummer freezes Flower stop blooming The closing door ceases............

There are questions with answers that we may never find Reasons, meanings unseen to the naked eye Paths without a destination written on a map ..Life Believing takes much more than what you see Dreaming isn't dreaming if you don't try to achieve Fears aren't all they're cracked up to be love isn't blind, It sees past the viable, and to the soul, It's humility and kindness There are reasons without rhymes Reflections can be deceiving mirrors of everything you're trying to hide People will walk in and out, but there are those who will keep the pieces of your heart you gave them for life they never remember, you'll never forget ..Life Angels voices sing their hymns of Amazing Grace play their songs of hope through out the day Enlightening our hearts giving us peace through those wars that we face every day and that's life you see ..Life