Honest Questions

I know it's been a long time those tears can only be held in for so long before the levee breaks, all you tried holding back has now broken forth You can't be strong all the time Pain isn't pretty but from it emerges beauty Would you let me just hold your heart even though you swear it's scattered in a million parts Take these moments of joy take these rays of sunlight take my hand, take my hand laugh these painful moments away I promise, the tears will stop Just watering the garden for the harvest that is to come You can't be strong all the time Pain isn't pretty but from it emerges beauty Remember I'm here through it all Would you let me just hold your heart even though you swear it's scattered in a million parts "There is no difficulty that enough love will not conquer; no disease that enough love will not heal; no door that enough love will not open; no gulf that enough love will not bridge; no wall ...

For the first time I'm sitting in disbelief Listening, praying Watching every movement counting every breath the earth keeps rotating seasons changing Life is happening Strength uphold me Mercy For the first time I awaken to the birds singing Though I was asleep for quite some time Lately I've been mistaken Because.. what's love to give when you don't know where it's from What it is? I know this life is all a gift but every now and then Compassion is mistaken Though my heart is pure and my motives are true Who am I to judge What he sends All we have are gifts from above For the first time I awaken to the birds singing Though I was asleep for quite some time Lately I've been mistaken the earth keeps rotating seasons changing Life is happening Strength uphold me Mercy

You are so good My Savior You are so glorious Shower me with love hold me up with all Your blessings My fortess, my rock, to You I give my heart I awaken in the morn with fresh air to breathe Look out the window see the sun shining through the trees All around me I find a reason to sing a song to To my Maker, my Healer, my Everything Your mercy has canceled out my pain I find that at those moments You never fail to send a compassionate heart with a smile on their face Reminding me of all the beautiful miracles You've unveiled I see Your love in their eyes In the snow and the star filled sky I feel Your arms holding me And it's Your words I hear as they pray for me Faith comes from hoping in that which we cannot see

My childhood dreams escape me they keep me on my knees unturned stones heart without a home carried away by the stream Leaves go from orange to red the night is once again day sun rises, sun sets feeling broken but it's okay Someday I'll meet you, just not today Fear is contagious Deceiving at the very least Please don't let me scare you please dont turn around and leave Leaves go from orange to red the night is once again day sun rises, sun sets feeling broken but it's okay Someday I'll meet you, just not today I'm willing to start all over change what needs to change If waiting is my only option I'll sit back down again Childhood dreams escape me Keep me on my knees unturned stones heart without a home carried away by the stream I know this is the only way Surrendering all over again every second of every day

Moments fade turning into hours, now they've become days Patience isn't my ally waiting.... sit and wait on the curbside Here I stand thumb out, waving my hand cars come cars go no one stops Not a glance, not a second look Here I stand confess that I'm weak I'm stained bruised and dirtied from the long, calloused journey I am what I am a broken and confused human I fear anymore heartache anymore pain will do away with me I wear my heart on my sleeve Open for the world to see But tonight it's only visible to those who search Look beyond what you feel Touch more than what you see Listen for the heartbeat Like a constellation in the night sky I'm just another star dimming out, missing it's light in the cold and dark night Another star Waiting to shine